Bunny’s Babblings

Came across this fun giveaway on plurk! 

I am playing along in a Craft Giveaway with Divaeva and I invite you to join us. The first 5 people to respond to this post will get something made by me, especially for you.
This offer does have a few guidelines:

•  I make no guarantees that you will like what I make but I sure hope you will
• What I create will be just for you
• Rules say that I have a year to get it to you, but I can promise it’ll be sooner than that!

The catch? You must re-post this on your blog and offer the same to the first 5 people who do the same on your blog.

I don’t get the impression that anyone was checking back for new on the plurk bookswap, but in case someone wanted to know, there were only two people who sent in a list of books despite several saying they were getting them off shortly. Doesn’t make for much of a swap. ah well!  A good idea, that would do better if run by one of the “popular” kids!

One of the lovely people I’ve come to know on plurk , Ms. Pritcharddesign, started a thread relating to books that got me to thinking how much fun it might be to do a plurk bookswap! so….. here we go!

Hopefully this makes sense to everyone! All you need to do to participate is contact me either by leaving a comment or by e-mail at tori dot martin at gmail dot com.  Please provide your plurk handle, your e-mail, City & State/Province and country, whether you’re willing to ship out-of-country and a list of up to 5 books you’d be willing to swap. Let me know if you’d prefer me to list your books under your e-mail addy or your plurk handle for folks to be able to contact you.

I’ll close submissions on June 12th & then post a comprehensive list. Anyone who posts a book offer is welcome to browse through the final lists to see what they’d like & then contact the current owner for arranging an exchange.

At that point, I’ll leave it up to the owner of the books to decide if they’d like to trade for something on the contacter’s list, or if they simply want to forward on a book (or more) and hope to find something they like elsewhere, or simply decline the request.

Happy book swapping!

cryin’

some days come easy,
some days you just kinda muddle through
some days laughter comes easy and love seems to be everywhere you turn
some days you force a laugh just to save yourself from crying
some days the sillies overtake and nothing can bring a frown
some days the darkness creeps in and grabs a hold of you
wraps you in its bitter embrace and hangs on tight
some days the tears seem but a blink away
and some days nothing can keep them away

I feel like I’ve spent the last several years of my life holding back. 

When my marriage ended, I went through grief, anger and even numbness.  I think I allowed the numb stage too much of a hold ..  I didn’t see the point in holding onto anger, disappointment or betrayal … but I think I slowed the healing process down in not allowing myself to sooner *feel* the full force of these things.  Is it really “bad’ to give into sorrw and anger and such “negative” emotions?  .   I wonder if I’d tossed caution and restraint out the window if I might have been able to truly feel free of that part of my past sooner?

I just wonder  … is it better to use caution with matters of the heart and with finances and really, one’s life? I don’t mean to suggest that living in wild abandon is the way to go .. but I wonder if being so *careful* is good .. at least for me?  In the last 5 or so years I feel I’ve moderated myself so much.  It’s certainly not good to rack up thousands of dollars in debt trying to keep abreast of the latest and greatest gadgets .. but a little debt for the sake of a few things that would bring greater connection, and that would allow some indulgence of passions and hobbies – would that be a bad thing? 

I’ve not really got myself “out there” so to speak … haven’t dated, haven’t sought out much in the way of new *real life* groups or activities.  In 5 years, there’s been less than half a dozen adult nights out .. and I don’t think that’s a good thing.  It’s easy to blame it on not having the money to go out, or wanting to be careful about who I meet, or worrying about The Child, or thinking I needed to sort myself out first … but I think I have had enough of the introspection .. I think no one is ever “done” .. there’s not going to be some perfect point to find someone … I think I’m in a much better place than I was and maybe I need to stop expecting myself to get everything figured out before I take a step forward ….

Does waiting make the reward sweeter? Or does it mean the reward never comes?

There’ll always be reasons *not* to do things, not to spend the money, not to take the chance, not to give one’s heart….

but I think perhaps I’ve kept my desires, longings, wants, wishes *too* tightly in check …..

I think I spend too much time worrying and not enough time *doing* .. I think .. I need to let go of fear and let go of this unrealistic idea of perfection I’ve been trying to push myself towards ….

it’s past time to let in some more laughter, fun, joy and love ….

not sure what the origin of these are, but thought I’d share

The roundest knight at King Arthur’s round table was Sir Cumference. He acquired his size from too much pi.

I thought I saw an eye doctor on an Alaskan island, but it turned out to be an optical Aleutian.

She was only a whisky maker, but he loved her still.

A rubber band pistol was confiscated from algebra class because it was a weapon of math disruption.

The butcher backed into the meat grinder and got a little behind in his work.

No matter how much you push the envelope, it’ll still be stationery.

A dog gave birth to puppies near the road and was cited for littering.

A grenade thrown into a kitchen in France would result in Linoleum Blownapart.

Two silk worms had a race. They ended up in a tie.

Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.

A hole has been found in the nudist camp wall. The police are looking into it.

Atheism is a non-prophet organization.

Two hats were hanging on a hat rack in the hallway. One hat said to the other, “You stay here; I’ll go on a head.”

I wondered why the baseball kept getting bigger. Then it hit me.

A sign on the lawn at a drug rehab center said: “Keep off the Grass.”

A small boy swallowed some coins and was taken to a hospital. When his grandmother telephoned to ask how he was, a nurse said, “No change yet.”

A chicken crossing the road is poultry in motion.

The short fortune-teller who escaped from prison was a small medium at large.

The man who survived mustard gas and pepper spray is now a seasoned veteran.

A backward poet writes inverse.

In democracy it’s your vote that counts. In feudalism it’s your count that votes.

When cannibals ate a missionary, they got a taste of religion.

Don’t join dangerous cults: Practice safe sects!

…. even this quiz thinks so!

Your Word is “Think”

You see life as an amazing mix of possibilities, ideas, and fascinations.And sometimes you feel like you don’t have enough time to take it all in.You love learning. Whether you’re in school or not, you’re probably immersed in several subjects right now. When you’re not learning, you’re busy reflecting. You think a lot about the people you know and the things you’ve experienced.

Stay tuned!

Well last week was a good one for job searching with more than half-a-dozen things worth applying to & three interviews!  However one of the interview was an absolute dead end, another a case of wrong timing (I was overqualified for the job I applied for, but apparently a great candidate for something that won’t be available until the Fall *sigh) and the third promising, but no idea about salary & the main decision maker was leaving the following day for a two-week holiday. *sigh*

I’ve struggled with where my career should be going next so much this last year. On the one hand, I think that whatever I do, it can be used. Ultimately, what matters most is relationship with others & that can be done in any job. On the other hand, it seems to me I have skills, abilities and a modecum of intelligence and it seems silly to me to not use it.  I wondered wether I needed to “swallow my pride” and be willing to take *any* job, and I certainly reached the point a couple weeks ago of letting go and putting in an application to Tim Horton’s .. but again, that doesn’t seem to fit with purpose in my life.

i don’t want to be needing assistance – whether in terms of welfare, subsidized housing, subsidized daycare, any social program like that. It bothers me to think I may be taking resources that someone else needs .. what about the people that aren’t able to work because of health or mental issues for instance?  it bothers me that I’m having to contemplate ending my sponsorship of a child in a developing country because I am worrying about how to put food on my own table. To me I have the capacity to be working in a *good* job and how much better would it not be to have abundance that could be shared with others?  But it’s still not coming.

To date I have applied for well over 50 jobs in the last year. I’ve had about 8 interviews. None yet got as far as a reference check. I’ve applied for things I’ve been overqualified for, perfect for, underqualified for. Three different agencies. Close to a dozen friends asked for their input and help.

*sigh* I’m not good at being patient and this being in limbo on a job and even a home (since I’ve been looking out of town as well as within) is very frustrating.